It was a good thing Blaine got to come today.
It was sad news this time... never a good sign when the technician's first question is "Have you had any bleeding?"
Those of you who have heard me interpret my dreams know this comes as no surprise - I was more astonished to get good news at the first appointment then to be told that we lost it this week.
It's not devastating, it's not tragic, but it is sad.
I know a few of you out there who know exactly what I'm going through, and you know I'll have more dreams to share with you at some point in the future.
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Sunday, March 7, 2010
She-Hulk
(week 11)
This week was intended to be a milestone. Blaine and I were going to go to the doctor to hear the heartbeat for the first time. The idea being that detection of a strong heartbeat represents clearing the hurdle of the first trimester. I thought it might also start to make this whole thing a bit more real for both of us.
I had intended to wait until after my appointment Monday morning to make my formal announcement at work. Then I got a call asking if I could reschedule since my doctor was out of town and the ones left covering were slammed. I was disappointed but found a way to reshuffle my meetings and classwork to make Tuesday afternoon work instead.
I couldn't help myself at work though, I went ahead and announced. It was really rewarding. People were very surprised and happy. My company is large, but news travels fast and ever since telling my teams I've had different people approaching me to confirm the rumors and congratulate. Even got my first belly grab - wasn't quite prepared for that. I love the girl that did it so it was okay, but it made me realize that I need to be more prepared for that reaction so I can implement an appropriate defense if needed.
I got another call at noon asking if I could reschedule again. This time I pushed back and explained how hard it was for me to make these appointments fit into my schedule in the first place. They were understanding and found time for me with a different doctor. So, I made it through an incredibly hectic work day and headed up to the appointment. Unfortunately Blaine couldn't join be because of the last minute change of plans.
Turns out he was lucky and didn't miss a thing. I spent another hour waiting around then went back for my appointment. The doctor was very nice and knowledgeable, she spent the whole time quizzing me about my medical history and plans for delivery. Then... it was over. I was very confused since the nurse had told me to expect the heartbeat test, but this doctor explained I had to come back in a week for that because it was too early.
I was really frustrated. I couldn't understand exactly who had screwed up. Did my doctor make a mistake when marking up info on my next appointment, did the scheduler misunderstand something or forget that I needed to be at 12 weeks for this, did the schedule changes screw things up so the equipment or technician wasn't available and they didn't want to admit that. What the hell? This was ridiculous! Did they really think I had the time and flexibility to change my appointment multiple times at the last minute AND come it twice for every visit!
I took a deep breath and tried to focus on the idea that this inconvenience had a silver lining and that Blaine could arrange to attend next time around.
*sigh*
Craving this week: Egg and cheese croissants I love you!
Pet Peeve: Taking extra time off work because someone can't count
Lesson Learned: Beware of unexpected belly grabs
To do list: Brush up on my kung-fu to thwart unwanted belly grabs
This week was intended to be a milestone. Blaine and I were going to go to the doctor to hear the heartbeat for the first time. The idea being that detection of a strong heartbeat represents clearing the hurdle of the first trimester. I thought it might also start to make this whole thing a bit more real for both of us.
I had intended to wait until after my appointment Monday morning to make my formal announcement at work. Then I got a call asking if I could reschedule since my doctor was out of town and the ones left covering were slammed. I was disappointed but found a way to reshuffle my meetings and classwork to make Tuesday afternoon work instead.
I couldn't help myself at work though, I went ahead and announced. It was really rewarding. People were very surprised and happy. My company is large, but news travels fast and ever since telling my teams I've had different people approaching me to confirm the rumors and congratulate. Even got my first belly grab - wasn't quite prepared for that. I love the girl that did it so it was okay, but it made me realize that I need to be more prepared for that reaction so I can implement an appropriate defense if needed.
I got another call at noon asking if I could reschedule again. This time I pushed back and explained how hard it was for me to make these appointments fit into my schedule in the first place. They were understanding and found time for me with a different doctor. So, I made it through an incredibly hectic work day and headed up to the appointment. Unfortunately Blaine couldn't join be because of the last minute change of plans.
Turns out he was lucky and didn't miss a thing. I spent another hour waiting around then went back for my appointment. The doctor was very nice and knowledgeable, she spent the whole time quizzing me about my medical history and plans for delivery. Then... it was over. I was very confused since the nurse had told me to expect the heartbeat test, but this doctor explained I had to come back in a week for that because it was too early.
I was really frustrated. I couldn't understand exactly who had screwed up. Did my doctor make a mistake when marking up info on my next appointment, did the scheduler misunderstand something or forget that I needed to be at 12 weeks for this, did the schedule changes screw things up so the equipment or technician wasn't available and they didn't want to admit that. What the hell? This was ridiculous! Did they really think I had the time and flexibility to change my appointment multiple times at the last minute AND come it twice for every visit!
I had to calm down... I couldn't afford to transform into she-hulk today. This was a really cute new dress and it would be a shame to tear it to shreds!
I took a deep breath and tried to focus on the idea that this inconvenience had a silver lining and that Blaine could arrange to attend next time around.
*sigh*
Craving this week: Egg and cheese croissants I love you!
Pet Peeve: Taking extra time off work because someone can't count
Lesson Learned: Beware of unexpected belly grabs
To do list: Brush up on my kung-fu to thwart unwanted belly grabs
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Poem 1 : Matchmaker
Matchmaker
Why, hello Heartburn!
I don't believe we've met.
I hear you could be staying with us a few months.
Let me introduce you to my friend Tums.
I think the two of you could really hit it off.
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